Poetry

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The Imposter Syndrome -Judith St John-Ives My Quest for Authenticity -Judith St John-Ives Midlife Lessons -anonymous

The Impostor Syndrome

If life is full of meaning
Then where did I go wrong
When I look at other people
They all seem so strong
And all so very certain
Of where they’re meant to be
Whereas I don’t even know
If I am really me
If I have found life’s purpose
Is this then the end
Or is there something else
Waiting around the bend
Others that I notice
Seemed to have worked it out
But when I wake in the morning
I think, what’s this all about
Sometimes I like to think
That others feel like me
They’re just putting on an act
For the world to see
And they’re just as uncertain
About why they’re really here
And where their life is going
If there’s anything out there
So perhaps I’ll keep on looking
And maybe I’ll find out
If there’s a meaning to my life
And what I am all about.

My Quest for Authenticity

If the universe has a plan for me
Would someone let me know
Because I have somehow lost my way
I don’t know where to go
I know there’s a purpose for me on earth
But I don’t understand
Where to look for my spiritual road
I need a helping hand
True happiness and peace elude me
Purpose is lost somewhere
So before I go mad- please let me know
Just why on earth I’m here.

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A new authoress from Sydney decided to share her first poem which developed slowly as she recovered from a transition in midlife that was thrust upon her - very moving.

Midlife Lessons

 
At mellow age and years of toil, life’s gifts seemed rather good
Children grown, and future plans, but alone it seems I stood
30 years of marriage so callously cast aside
Tatters of shared memories, torment I could not hide

Suddenly the road I’d planned had taken a brutal turn
Confusion, loss and loneliness, cruel lessons mine to learn
My life now lay in ruins, my heart it bled despair
The road that I now travelled seemed far too hard to bear

The Dr so well- meaning said, “how about some helpful pills,
Cover up all pain, and you’ll forget your ills.”
I knew somehow this quick fix was not for me the path
That even though it’s harder I must confront the dark

My soul it needed refuge to not just disappear
To come back even stronger and shed no more my tears
“search and find your answers” my inner voice it cried
Seek out those deep held patterns; don’t let your own soul die

I opened each door slowly to eternal spiralling stairs
Climbing each and every one and left behind those fears
From chakras and meridians to meditation and prayer
I learnt to show forgiveness from healers who do care

Then one day a sought for message, a means to now aspire,
To join my soul and body and climb forth ever higher
To fuel my new found passion I need to learn still more
Overcome all doubts and limits anchored in my core

This school is my safe haven to seek and then develop
To fill my heart with true peace and always to envelop
The truth and all the wisdom of those who choose to teach
That love brings forth the answers to all that we do seek

I know that this, my life, is the best that it can be
And strive to now help others and be proud of being me
The road that I still travel will no doubt have more bends
But with arms held widely open I welcome all that this life sends